Posts tagged ‘Billy Goat Plum’

The Sun and Billy Goat Plum

From the Peanuts Tarot

From the Peanuts Tarot

Billy Goat PlumWhat a perfect pair of cards for the Official Engagement Tour.

The Sun for illumination, freedom and joy. Billy Goat Plum for shameless physical behaviour. Nuff said.

He’s here.

Before he left England he visited my daughters, Anne and Kate, asked for their blessing and showed them the engagement ring.

My only criteria were that it should be a ruby, not a diamond, and look as though it was crafted by Elves.

I don’t know what he was panicking about. It’s perfect.

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The High Priestess and Billy Goat Plum

From the Robin Wood Tarot

From the Robin Wood Tarot

The female mysteries have ever been fascinating and frightening, to both men and women. While the male principle seems obvious and easy to understand, the feminine is veiled.But the High Priestess and Billy Goat Plum together show us the way to accessing the divine feminine, which of course resides within us all, both men and women.

Be still.

The mind and its constant running commentary on all our actions and emotions is an unruly and usually critical master.

Still the mind and let the High Priestess guide you to the sacred within.

Billy Goat Plum addresses shame, particularly sexual shame, and shame arises within the mind.

Billy Goat PlumThis lesson applies to all aspects of our lives but is easily and plainly demonstrated in the sexual arena.

In our most intimate moments with the ones we love, too often we can find ourselves sitting apart, anxiously observing how we look, what effect we are creating, or else we are far away in a fantasy we have no intention of sharing.

The High Priestess challenges us to be still, to know ourselves and to honour the sacred within. Only then can we find the courage to be truly intimate.

Still the mind, soothe its chatter. The High Priestess holds the crystal of intuition and the book of intellect. Both must be honoured if balance is to be achieved.

Blessed be.

Strength and Billy Goat Plum

From the Robin Wood Tarot

The run of major cards continues and, after a week’s break, the lesson on sexuality resumes.While Sturt Desert Rose addresses sexual shame and guilt, Billy Goat Plum is for sexual revulsion and physical revulsion. On the physical level, it can be used to address skin disorders.

Its positive outcome is a recognition of the inherent beauty in all living things and an acceptance of your physical body.

Before I turn to the card of Strength, I will examine my own attitudes to my body and sexuality and how they have changed since John left me.

Marriage is a safe haven in which to contain our sexual natures. But it can give the illusion that we have that aspect of our selves understood and under control.

Effectively, in one sense, I placed responsibility for my sexual safety in the hands of another. Is that ever a good idea?

One of the greatest fears I faced on being alone for the first time in 20 years was how to manage the wild beast of my sexuality. How, in forming new relationships, to know when to get sexy, when and how to raise discussions about sexual health, how to honour my sexuality without dishonouring my primary role of mother to two girls, who will be looking to my example when determining these issues for themselves in due course.

How to tread the rocky Middle Way between living like a nun and installing a turnstile at the bedroom door?

And on top of all that, the knowledge that I was 20 years older with a body that had borne two children with a man who, on his way out, had attacked my sexual ‘failings’ and attractiveness in the most explicit terms.

It’s been six years of learning how to deal with all these things and my biggest insight is that the idea of sexual shame or guilt is barely addressed in the stereotypes of Will She/Won’t She Ice Queen/Whore.

Which brings me to the beautiful card of Strength and its graphic depiction of the wild beast tamed, not by force or coercion but by compassionate understanding and love.

I have really enjoyed this week. I have imagined my sexual power walking beside me as a big, beautiful cat and enjoyed the awareness of her, curled at my feet as I wait for the bus or lolling against the sink while I make a coffee.

It is clear that when the holy trinity of Heart, Head and Sexuality are in harmony we walk in wisdom and can fully trust our own judgment.

The choice is not between Instinct and Intellect. The choice lies in how we balance the two and ride the life force with focus and direction.

The Fool and Billy Goat Plum

From the Peanuts Tarot

Another journey card! When my daughter Kate and I are indeed about to set off on a journey – and a momentous one for each of us.

She will be visiting her father for the first time in two years and, unlike the last time, she won’t have her sister Anne with her. I think it will be hard. At worst she could feel like a stranger in her father’s house. Past experience says that’s likely and I’m really worried but I’m trying very hard to be honest and realistic with her, but not to reinforce her fears.

At least she has a bolthole at Anne’s place.

And me? I’m looking forward to seeing Anne and the friends I left behind but most of all I’m looking forward to seeing Jason. This isn’t how this trip was planned and it seems so strange that it’s got such a romantic focus to it now. I can’t wait to see him and yet I know this is only going to end in tears. My heart is breaking ahead of time.

But these are yesterday’s concerns – 6 Swords territory.

Today the Fool says lighten up everyone, Christmas is coming.

It’s time to be playful and enjoy ourselves – Kate will be ok. I’m sure she’ll have some difficult, if not bad, moments and I’m sure she’ll also have a good time. And she’s got Anne and I’m sure I’ll be able to see her a couple of times before we meet again at the airport in January. So, I must encourage her to focus on the good things ahead and I must do the same.

My trip to England will therefore be undertaken in the spirit of the Fool – unburdened as far as possible by any consideration of what will come after.

We’ve had his holiday romance which started this whole mess when he came over in October and now it’s time for my holiday romance! How wonderful to be involved in two holiday romances, each one with my perfect guy! Some people would be pretty happy with one of those, so I’ll regard myself as doubly blessed.

Once again, the two cards have a clear connection. The Fool is a good representation of the positive outcome of Billy Goat Plum – the acceptance of self, specifically one’s physical body.

After all, how can you step out into the World and embrace all its gifts if you reject the primary one of your own physical body?