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The Empress and Sydney Rose

From the Robin Wood Tarot

From the Robin Wood Tarot

Sydney RoseAs my baby girl headed off alone to the other side of the world I needed the comfort of Sydney Rose like never before.

For how better could my state be mirrored than by the reversed card of the Lady in her maternal aspect?

My agitation wasn’t helped when she called me, as promised, on arrival and told me she’d been bothered in the transit lounge by a man who, after failing to get her phone number off her, had followed her around the airport. Finally she sought refuge in the toilets until they called her flight.

She’s 15.

I shouldn’t have been so shocked. I was 11 and walking home from school the first time a strange man confronted me on the path holding his penis and Anne, my eldest daughter, was 14 when she was stopped by a middle-aged man in the street who sidled up to her in the middle of the afternoon and asked her to show him a good nightclub. I just happened to be a few paces behind her and in a position to tell him in no uncertain terms where to get off.

But it is shocking. The hardest part of parenting is remembering that not everyone’s a potential rapist or murderer. We do our daughters no favours by trying to wrap them in cotton wool and keep them safe from our nightmares but if you think letting them walk alone to the shops is hard, try putting one of them on a plane and sending her off to the other side of the world.

But she was safe by then in her father’s house and, while I couldn’t quell the panic entirely, I had to be satisfied with that. Oh but I miss her and will miss her until she’s back home. The walk down the hall past her empty bedroom is long and lonely and dark and the house is quiet as the grave, but nowhere near as peaceful.

Sydney Rose is the reminder that the cords between us can bear any distance. Its intense, purest pink symbolises the healing power of love and reminds us that there is no separation between us because we are, ultimately, all one.

Ian White, Father of the Australian Bush Flower Essences, calls Sydney Rose the crowning glory of the Bush Essences. While we may understand our connection to each other on an intellectual level, Sydney Rose opens our hearts to a deeper understanding of that principle.

Does it help? A little. But the corridor is still dark and the house is still silent. The Empress is reversed and will remain so until her return.

Jason will be here to put a ring on my finger before I see my Kate again but even the joy of knowing that cannot quell the aching in my heart.


Ace of Wands and Bluebell

From the Robin Wood Tarot

The creative spark, the beginning of action – the Ace of Wands is a VERY exciting card.

Bluebell is a beautiful flower and opens the heart Chakra, promoting joyful abundance and universal love.

Both cards confirm that this journey of mine is above all one of playfulness and fun, the complete opposite of the journey I took when I left England.

That journey was a leap of faith into the unknown, taken when my spirit was at rock bottom and I was physically and emotionally drained.

I return to England, not at full strength, but in better shape than I’ve been for a long time. I go back as living, glowing proof that I made the right decision.

I’m also confident it was the right decision for my daughters. Without the turmoil of those last years in England, they’ve grown and strengthened. Whatever challenges they face, they know there is a safe haven when they need it and that makes any journey easier.

I was thinking about how the Ace of Wands and Bluebell might be related and suddenly remembered the words of an old friend in England – ‘Love isn’t just feelings, love is action.’

Love is action – and that idea unites Bluebell and the Ace of Wands in a very beautiful and profound way.