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Queen of Wands and Sydney Rose

Sydney RoseFor a few weeks now I have been a reversed Queen of Wands, struggling to recover that sense of balance I enjoyed for such a short time after Jason’s visit.

There are several reasons for the tip into the negative and all come under the heading of lack.

From the Robin Wood Tarot

From the Robin Wood Tarot

Not least among them, Kate is going back to England soon to visit her dad. And it will be the first time she’s travelled alone.

Intellectually, I know that both she and I will be fine. I can even acknowledge that we will probably both ultimately enjoy the break from each other’s company.

But it’s hard not to focus on the sense of loss and stack it up next to the ongoing lack of Jason, and then to notice more and more little of pebbles of want lying in my path and then to stack them one by one on top of these two big rocks of sadness.

The Sydney Rose essence has been described by Ian White as the crowning glory of the Bush Flowers. Its serene message is the realisation that there is no separation between us, that we are all one.

Intellectually, this Queen knows this to be true. But in my reversed state of imbalance I suffer the melancholy and sense of isolation that must inevitably precede the full realisation of that crowning glory.

I am only human, with a yearning human heart.

I pray for strength to accept these physical separations which are my lot and the wisdom to put them in perspective.


Queen of Wands and Wisteria

From the Robin Wood Tarot

Of course, because I’m a Sagittarius, this is ‘my’ queen. She’s also the queen who signifies my cousin Janis, an Aries, who phoned today for a long overdue chat and pep talk.

Janis always fires up my enthusiasm and makes me feel ready for life to step up a gear, even if today was a bit somnolent. Nothing more exciting than cleaning and grocery shopping, so a phone chat with my cousin was definitely the most Queen of Wands-ish thing that happened today.

Wisteria is the female sexuality essence and, goes without saying, the Queen of Wands is highly sexual.

If I’ve been thinking about my sex life lately I suppose it’s been to affirm that I really have no interest in ‘junk food’ sex. I’m holding out for the good nourishing stuff you get when souls connect too.

And a text message from Jason elicited an interesting response from me. He made some cute remark – cute and sexy – and I felt obliged to pull him up on it. I’m out of my attic and have no intention of returning.

So sorry, my love.